Who do I envy?

Someone asked me a blatant question. They looked me straight in the eye and asked, ”Who do you envy?” My first response was to give them a confused look, and then  try to figure out why they would ask me that in the first place. But then I started my train of thought to figure out if I do envy someone.

Envy? Do I have someone I envy? Maybe a rich person; no, most rich people are corrupt. I wouldn’t want to end up like that, greedy for money and could not care less about people. Actually, do they worship money or satan? Either one is terrible and wait, I’m getting off course.

Ok envy, envy, I hear that sometimes girls envy people who are beautiful and guys envy people who are handsome. What is beauty to begin with? Does the natural beauty of the moon count? It has this thing about it that attracts me to it. But that’s natures beauty, not human beauty. Ok, imagine a beautiful person. Are they female or male? No, no, no, if I’m trying to figure out what a beautiful person looks like, there’s no way I would be envious.

Cross that out then. Is there anything else I could be envious of? I definitely have a slight complex when it comes to height.  Do I envy tall people? I’m not obsessed with height though I would love to get taller. I sometimes wish I was taller like some of my cousins. How in the world did I even inherit such a strong gene of short? Well at least I’m not three feet tall, and being short has some advantages that tall people wish they had.

Maybe I envy people my age with a job. But it does take a bit of time and dedication away from other things I really enjoy doing; maybe I’m not ready then.  So what about people my age who have their own vehicle? I probably need money which would come from a job which I would not have. But then owning a vehecle is a big responsibility  and sometimes can be a headache, something I can do without at this time. Maybe I envy people with the latest computer, nope definitely not. My computer has been with me though thick and thin and it doesn’t give problems like the latest models. What about……

”Are you okay?” ”You didn’t answer my question.” Oh I got a little too lost in thought. Well, I think I know the answer anyway. ” Oh, sorry.” ”Sometimes I’ll have a fleeting though of, cool I wish I had that but it’s not something that consumes me where I desperately want it.” So I suppose I’m not really envious of anyone.”